Plan A?

Well...right now I'm sitting in my classroom at my desk...no..I'm not supposed to be teaching right now, just on my lunch break. There have been a lot of difficult situations to deal with in the past few weeks, but God has been so faithful. Honestly, 2 weeks ago I really started to follow my own plan of how things should go. There have been some financial issues at school and there have just been a lot of doubts for me lately about where I'm at. Yesterday, Pastor talked about life plans. He focused on the story of Moses. I was really intrigued and challenged by his message. I did today's staff devotional time and had planned on talking about God's greatness and reading from the Psalms. On my way to school I felt that God was telling me to speak about what I had heard in yesterday's message. The fact is, we can make excuses and bring up all of our short comings and why something won't work, but God's plan is always better and our plan will always cost more. If situations were perfect and everything was how it should be then really there wouldn't be a need for God. There are reasons why I doubted the place that I am at in life and when I looked at all the excuses I was making for changing where I'm at I realized that they were all things that God would build me in and He would bring what needed to be brought and that He has always provided and always will. While I was talking to Tim it really hit me that no matter what is going on God is in control and will provide what is necessary. It's amazing how much God's plan (Plan A) makes sense when you look at it more how he sees it. He knows why plan B won't work out as well and will cost so much more. Aaron was not part of God's plan, but Moses wouldn't accept plan A...he wanted it to work his way. Aaron may have been able to speak well, but he didn't have the character. Looking at the big picture Aaron and plan B are the reasons that Moses never entered the Promised Land. Want to follow Plan A...or plan B?

Well...I'm gonna try this out...

I have never been the greatest at doing these blog things, but it seems like it would be the best way for people to know what is going on in my life...and I've definitely been super busy. Well...Let's see...
I guess I should just start at what has happened in my life since this summer. Short story is that I went to Minnesota to train with CTI Music Ministries, met a guy named Tim during training, left for a month to go to Guatemala, saw God move and do amazing, incredible things while there, came back changed and renewed, Tim was there when I got back (huge surprise), he met my parents that week, I went with him to Indiana and met his family, we became an official couple while in Indiana, I came back to Wisconsin, about a month and a half later he moved to Wisconsin, and in the midst of all that I started my second year of teaching high school English at Heritage Christian. It's been quite a crazy time...And I think that I may have actually punctuated that last sentence correctly to make the whole thing a correct, but very long sentence. :)
It may seem quite crazy...and believe me there are times when I am like...whoa...is this for real! Am I going too fast with everything?? What am I doing? I can say honestly that yes this is for real...has life moved fast? yes, but we have prayed through each step. And, I am living my life fully for God, that's what I'm doing.
Tim is an amazing guy. Being in a relationship with him, I have been blessed in so many ways. It's kind of a weird situation. Well, different...he is living with my parents in order to be able to live here and save money in order to figure out living for the future. It's been interesting and great to have him staying with my parents. They were a little skeptical...well..cautious about the relationship. They have really gotten to know Tim and have really grown to like him and see us together. That's really important for me because my family is so important and huge to me. I really do take what they say to heart and I consider it in my decisions. Tim and I had a lot of time to pray and reflect on this relationship both before and during it. God has been leading and aligning our paths in so many different ways. It has been incredible. I have a someone who leads me spiritually, someone to laugh with, to comfort me, to be my best friend, to listen to, and to be heard by. Honestly, I have been scared at times and I've questioned decisions, but God keeps confirming what is going on. At the beginning of each class I have a devotional time that I do. Most times, it ends up being something that speaks right to me when I think I do it just for my students. There was one that I did about a month back about giving God control. One of the girls in my class talked to me about it after class and it was one of those times when I really began to see how God was working in the relationship that Tim and I have. This girl was in a relationship situation that I have been all to familiar with in my past. There were so many times when I've dated a guy because of stupid reasons and the spiritual aspect was usually not present. I was able to tell her just how much better and really incredible the relationship that I have with this man of God is. It was a huge step of faith that he took to move to Wisconsin. I mean really huge. He literally left everything that he knew. He's in a place where I'm one of the only people he really knows, except my parents (who he has really gotten to know pretty well), and his comfort of location (moving from the country to the city). It's been huge to see the control that God truly has in this situation. If I did not feel that God had his hand on this relationship, I really don't think that I would have let him move, but God keeps proving himself to be a part of it all.
Well...I knew that I wouldn't be able to get to everything, but I wanted to put a dent in to what's been going on in my life. I'm really going to try to keep up with doing this blogging thing. I'm at a place in my life that it seems to fit much better. Please keep me, Tim, our relationship, the country of Guatemala (which I'll write about very soon), and my family in your prayers. God Bless!